I have to say…the looming big 50 is having a bigger effect on me than I thought it would. There’s something about knowing that my life is “half-over” that just kind of woke me up.
I started looking at my work/life balance. The way I spend (or don’t spend enough) time with my family and friends. How much I’ve been a workaholic, building a business over the past eleven years. How because I always put work first, I haven’t been taking care of myself emotionally and physically as much as I should be. All kinds of things have flooded into my view and the message came through loud and clear- it’s time to try to fully embrace my zen. Kind of a “Mina 2.0” to go with the Big 5-0. 😉
So, what does that mean to me? It’s time to readjust some things so I can keep growing (and flowing) – keep the energy moving towards the horizon. Personally, I don’t think we should ever stop.
I’m a Taurus. And if you know anything about Taurus’ you know we are “hard working” – it’s like a badge of honor for us. Then add the fact that I had a tough upbringing that made me learn to fend for myself at an early age. I even remember my Grandma telling me that when they sat me down to tell me my mom died, the first thing that came out of my mouth was, “but what are we going to do about money?” I was 9.
Survival is all I’ve ever known and working hard was my ticket to that survival. And while that energy has served me well in my life, I realize it’s time to let go of my preconceived notions of what it looks like to work “hard”.
Working hard doesn’t mean being at the office at 8am to 8pm every night. It doesn’t mean forcing myself to do things I don’t like (or am not good at). It doesn’t mean always keeping up a “professional” façade. So if working isn’t going to mean that for me any longer, what could work look like in this new phase of my life?
So I got curious and looked up the meaning of “work” and discovered a definition that suits me just fine!:
“To use one’s persuasive power to stir the emotions of (a person or group of people) “
We often hear this in the context of “working the crowd” and I love this because that’s what I want my life to be about. Being real, connecting with others, and allowing my emotions (and the emotions of those around me) to surface and be expressed. Hell yes, that’s the kind of “work” I want to do – that’s where the JUICE is!
So how do I do this? By giving myself space. Space to create. Space to discover and explore what’s possible without the confines of my self-limiting parameters. I don’t have children and since I own my own company I don’t have a boss, so to anyone on the outside-looking-in, it would appear that I have a ton of flexibility. But my inner experience has been rigid and unrelenting. I focus on when I “should” be in the office, what I “should” be doing, what I “should’ve” gotten done, who I “should’ve” called, what I “should’ve” said…in the end, I’ve just been should-ing all over myself!
It’s time for me to “work” differently. In a way that works for me, without worrying what everyone else thinks it should look like. I’m creative and creative people need space to create. 🙂 I crave the opportunity to work from anywhere and at any time, especially when I’m feeling really inspired, and with today’s technology that should be easy! So…
My Zen Road Trip
I’m taking my creative, space-needing, wandering soul on the road to see what I find out there (and in myself) along the way.
For those of you who don’t know, my mom was a long-haul truck driver. She spent years driving back and forth across this great country and I think that longing for the open road has been lying dormant in me for far too long…it’s time to set her free.
So today I’m heading out for a three month journey that will be a beautiful tapestry of personal and professional experiences. I will be visiting national parks and getting in-tune with nature, I’ll be visiting places that were significant in my life (where my mother passed and some of the houses I lived in when I was young). I will be visiting other remodelers all over the country, conducting interviews to see how women are having a positive impact on the remodeling industry, and of course, I’ll be visiting dear friends along the way. Some I’ve known for years and some I’ve yet to meet.
Of the people I have told about my trip so far, the first question usually asked is “what about Synergy”? And that’s where I have my proudest moment. I get to explain that we have built such an incredible team over the past decade that I know, without a doubt, they’ve got the support and “synergy” between them to not skip a beat! And…that’s the beauty of working “remotely” – I’m still plugged in. I’ll be reviewing designs, attending meetings virtually and connecting with clients just like I always do…it’ll just look a little different.
Of course none of this would be possible without Mark’s unending love and support. He is truly the most amazing partner anyone could ever ask for and the depth of his patience and understanding never ceases to amaze me. He fully supports this adventure of mine and knows it’s feeding my soul and will only bring new and creative energy back to everything we do both personally and professionally.
As I hit the road, I’m getting ready for what I think will be a wild ride! I’ll be sharing not only my experiences, but I’ll be sharing myself from the heart. I am going to practice the art of being open and transparent, in hopes of connecting with everyone I come into contact with, in new and profound ways.
Now I’m gassed up, I’ve checked the tires, looked under the hood and I’m ready to take the wheel – hope you’ll join me on the ride!